Yuri( Japanese)’s who is struggling with online business blog

it's been a long time since i wrote the blog last time,now,2021,almost 2022,last time i wrote the blog was 2018,i decide to own my bussiness at ebay or amazon,see u around!

Well sleeping time,I just gonna leave what I wrote in my book,which will need a lots of editing and auditors,anybody volunteer? Lol,these days,it’s not a book,it’s like a dairy.....， well few days past since I wrote,I’ve been sick,frustrated and irritated in these days,one translating company needs to hire some translators so they gave me a test,I didn’t say it was easy,but not that hard,it depends on how much time or work I will be able to dedicate to that job,only one job,I was like ohhh cuz I have been sick,today,I finally could do my tasks instead of meditation,praying,writing stuffs,and so on,one company cancelled our contracts because he lost all of data and it will take long to fb it,but that’s ok,I dropped second fortune teller’s tests but it’s ok I don’t think I have 6th sense or anything,if I had,I would’ve stuck here right now,I’ve been looking for translating jobs but there’s no luck,and then,I changed my mind,wait a min,why don’t you find web auditions sites? But my de...

ネガティヴをポジティブに変えよう！just today’s thought... I might be up and down every single days,someday,I do all of my tasks,someday,I can’t or don’t do all my tasks including working,I just started to my jobs,so I don’t work longtime,longest is 6 hours like two days,I might have more space to get translating job from net,I’ve been thinking getting more jobs so that I will be get out of welfare,but working from home is not my goal,it maybe...cuz I am still interested in online business which is so hard,why some people can work only few hours a day and get triple or more money than white collars? I’m always wondering,it’s like “ less business hours more money”?what the hell you are talking about? But actually,there are people who is doing these thing,oh they might worked so hard until they get there,I don’t know what Jake is saying in his videos,of course I am not saying I don’t understand him at all,he’s saying wire,rewire thing,2nd mind,deserve it,worthy some stuffs everyone understands but o...

I found my mentor,maybe he is Jake or No,I don’t know....my book styles came to different,these days,it’s now like a diary stuffs, I am not the position to teach something or maybe I can teach English which is no good,I don’t know what I could offer besides S and E thing or P,no,nonooooo,I can just tell you what I learned from net or something....here’s today’s dairy,no book,I offer this for free? I don’t know why,and don’t know when I established it,just knowing writing blog thing is good,日本人の方、結構いらっしゃいますか？翻訳必要ですか？ but maybe no answer....well let’s get started! Ohhh dunno what happened to my Google Adsense,have to figure it out!my book”yesterday,I was not feeling well after my work done,I haven’t felt doing nothing,so I slept earlier at around 10, yesterday,I felt stressful,every time I tried to imagine good future,my imagination changes to it’s bad image,I don’t know what it is,I still don’t think that I’m worthy?i must be worthy to my dreams,today,I checked my mails,there was a ma...

In these days,I was so negative,tiring,sick which were no good,but since I started working,I felt better,I still can’t use my imagination or control my feelings,but I am trying,since I am tired and sleepy,I will chant,write stuffs,check my mails and going to bed....., from here...I tried to answer the questions from mail where I got DHA company,I tried send the answer several times,but never sent,there’s an error message,so I sent a question form,I hope it‘ll be fixed by tomorrow,I must refuse before they send me stuffs each months,which will costs,these days,I was upset,mad and irritated,may be I was sick,my throat keep on hurting,and my head aches,but I still keep on doing my job and sang,it’s hard to remember lyrics but I’m trying,I still don’t feel like uploading my karaoke thing,but it will never start until I do it,many people might thumb down signs but I won’t care about it anyways,cuz I know I sing suck,maybe I have to have special voice training which unti aging your voi...

I told my mom that everything I learned,like positive thinking,about subconscious,about imagination,every good stuffs,but she acting differently today on the phone,she said Tokyo is too cold to live,I told her I was there for 20 years,Tokyo isn’t that cold,she said,from this year weather is changing in Tokyo,I was upset cuz it was offensive,like I took it mom says bad about Tokyo and stopping me to go there,it wasn’t the first time,she had done that several times,then she accused about fine this year,which made me mad since I owe her money,I told her I will give it back more than a millions back if I become successful,then she started to sing her new song” positive,negative” she keep on singing “positive,negative “cuz they were new words she learned cuz they are English,I thought she was going crazy and it really dropped me nuts,so I hang up the phone,next few hours,I tried to call her again,but no answers,I mailed her ,after few minutes she called me and she confessed she hit a woman,...

I’ve been busy figuring out how to things work out....it’s been changing my life slowly,I got new jobs from net, But one client didn’t pay for what i’ve Done for her which drove me crazy,site didn’t help much,if this site is unrealible I won’t use it anymore or I will keep on trying to get My money back,I try to become independent,try to practice what I think I have to do,I have some tasks each day,such as painting,I still keep on drawing lilpeep,sing along songs which are allowed to upload in YouTube,I uploaded some videos but too shy to put them in YouTube I still hesitate to put my pix in Instagram and my sites, It’s sarcasm that I want to be famous,but I am hesitating to show up,I write lyrics,my book which I might show part of them here, I pray,meditate and clean bathroom,etc,learning how to be positive,how to imagine your dreams,how to beat up negativity and about subconscious...etc, Here’s some part that I wrote my book....here u go....” ...

12月12日の分、 私って何もできないんだ、“my life sux”って、 オンラインブック の続編を書いているんですが、作家向きじゃないかと思った(鼻高いですね)私は2つ以上の日本語blog 持ってますが、blogをebookに変換して、kindle に載せようとしたところ、失敗。 やり方難しいですね、、、睡眠きちんと取ろうと思ってるんですよ、もっと早く起きなきゃ。日本かアメリカで仕事探してるんだけど、主婦モデルはいい仕事かと思った、テレビショッピングに出る人達ですよ、通訳は昔からの夢なんですが、芸能通訳はなかなかいばらの道ですね、学校に行かないと、歌手も俳優も独学は無理。 シニアコースなんてのもあったけど、入学金聞き忘れた、確か25万くらい？始めから英語で歌うレッスンのスクールは、ネット申し込みなら、入学金ゼロ、月謝で なんとか、、、でも授業料払うにはそれなりにお金貯めなきゃ。働くなら東京が一番、通訳か、主婦モデルやりたいけど、偽のモデルエージェンシーが、モデルやりたいこと 人から、金取って荒稼ぎ。タレントや芸能事務所なんかそう、詐欺に気をつけてくださいね(自分には言ってる)アメリカでは、小さくても、173cm以上、私は、10cmも 低い(悲)でも、モデルになれるって、手タレとか、部分タレントかなぁ、、、一応、情報だけは取ってます。 私は、歌詞を、(英語)インストラクションに沿って書いてるし、lilpeepの歌を歌ってる(今は他の 歌手も)自伝(英語)が、ハリウッド映画化されないか、期待して書いてます、２つ目のサイト作るかどうしようか、迷ってます、自分のアピールサイトか、ビジネスサイトか、 You tube 見てたらプロダクションとのコネが必要って、どうやってコネ作るの？私のメインblog、japan and Japanese は一向に進まない、集中も、情熱も かけてきた、英語で書くのは好きで、英語で歌うのも、台本読むのも好き、Eminem には、ついていけないけど、あれは鬼才だから、Eminem と、私は誕生日が1か月違い、 若いのは、私です！ネットで話題になってた20の女の子、多分アメリカ人が、引きこもりの広場恐怖症で、可愛い歌をYouTube にあげてた、私もやりたいが、 自作が作れない(泣)BGMはどこから来たんだ？全て彼女の自作か？...

It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote this blog,I just have been busy,I can’t go to school,because I am broke,so I have to learn by myself,first of all,I sing along with music and lyrics,some song is too hard Because they sing too fast,if I learn how to sing like Eminem,I could sing any songs,then I read English movie scripts,it’s fun because you can imagine what’s going on there in the scripts even if I haven’t watched these films, Recently,I sold my t.v for only 20dollars,and bumped DVD player which was a mistake,I can’t see any movies but I don’t Watch t.v anymore,watching news on t.v is putting negative information on your brain so not good,but I enjoy reading it, If you use your right brain,it will connect to your unconscious,how many heroes can you think of who is left handed?when you are Left handed,it will use your right brain( not left) so it’s good to be pretending that you are a left handed,use left hand a lot In your daily life,you can’t use it when y...

I got concerta (pills)dunnno the English name,In japan,they usually change the pills name.....which confuses me,like every countries have different regulations and names,when Chris Cornell died with Ativan,we had to translate it to “Waipax”,when lilpeep died with 1000 Xanax,we have to recall “ lexapro”very confusing,in the states,” rape drugs” are illegal,but in japan,we used it when we have sleeping problems....,it’s legal here,I dunno what I should take if I go or move to the states,I dunno it’s the same name,but “Doral” didn’t work for me,I sang some female singer’s songs which wasn’t easier for me,cuz I can’t do high tones that’s desperate for women to becoming a singer,I am creative,so I want to write my own songs and let people know my thoughts,today,I wrote one lyric about I had a panic attack at night,the title is”The goddess”which was also about my mom...write song here?nah,my songs belong to Me,no one can steal my songs....,but some song at YouTube,u can do karaoke with the...

I can’t still get over with lilpeep,he inspired of me something that I will become popular in the states,I know it’s crazy, No money to go school nor states,I gotta start getting a job,hopefully interpreter or middle aged woman model,while I was thinking about becoming a model,I eat sweets,isn’t it strange? I really want to be a model? I asked myself and thinking about loosing Weight,I sing lilpeep’s songs everyday cuz sometimes it’s too fast because it’s rap,I was also wondering I should sing female songs like R&B,seems like many competitions,songs like Mariah Carry,Alicia Keys and Keisha Cole....etc.i also read american(English) Film and I think I can do that but only short part,being a singer or actor,u have to have a good memory,yea,I used to when I was 20, but not anymore,because of the pills I take,I also have dry mouth which will be a problem if u want to sing or act,oh well,I also write my book which might be shorter I think,I have to put and put more stories,no o...

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I can’t do fu@king thing! I was writing my book off line which is continuing from my life sux and I thought it was a good idea becoming a writer,I have two other or more blogs( Japanese) And tried to make them to e book and sell on kindle store but the process is too hard,I need to sleep early so that I can sleep Well and wake up earlier,i’ve been looking for many jobs in Tokyo and the states,my first thought was becoming a middle aged femal fashion model in magazines even,t.v...I applied some,then I wanted work as interpreter it is hard to becoming one if u don’t go special schools,like an actor and a singer is same,i was looking for schools in Tokyo and I found one or two,more,the one is for senior talents,I was interested and call,but I forgot about tuition,I have no money to go to Tokyo,my first step is going back to work,I wanna be an interpreter and middle aged female model,either one is not that easy,some or most model agencies take money from “wanna be a model”,I just didn’t...

12月1日、孤独、1人の友達を失った、私はアメリカで有名になりたいと言った、確かに、非現実かもしれないけど、「あんた、病気よ、被害妄想じゃない？」って、 悲しくて、怒りに満ち溢れている、終わり。もうこれ以上何も書けない。12月5日、書くのを諦めたわけじゃなくて疲れてて、かったるい日々、占い師達は、結婚できないだの、子供無理だの、夢一つさえ叶わないだの、ロクな事言わない、1人は自称ジプシーで、結婚できないのは、呪われてるから、その呪い解くのに、200ドル、ギリギリまで迷ったけど、辞めた、私はポジティブになる事を決めた、ネガティヴなエネルギーを、皆ブロックして、今は幸せじゃないけど、、、、、 いつか幸せになってソウルメイトを掴むんだ、今まで探し過ぎたけど、今度は彼が私を見つける番 好きな人(lilpeep)は、亡くなった、私はやりたい事を全てやって、お金と、名声と、家と、赤ちゃんを授かる、名声も得る、私の名前がアメリカのどこかに出るのを 見てて。12月8日、今日はblog書く気分だ、人生はあまくないけど、いつも誰かが必ず助けてくれる、今回は、母が助けてくれた、感謝。ママは役立たずと思ったけれど、 実は困った時、手を差し伸べてくれた、Facebook の3000人中の友達のうち、たった2人が助けてくれた、両方とも日本人で両方とも女性、総計からいくと、日本人はアメリカ人より助けてくれる、女は男よりも助けてくれる、殆どのアメリカ人(男性)は、見返りを求め、その目的は、同じ性的欲望。殆どはミリタリーだったけど、民間人も同じ男、 男は男。 自分の夢を書いてる時、この夢が本物かどうかかんがえる、私は何かの生き残りみたいだ、ホームレスじゃないし、安物だけど、お腹いっぱい食べられる、 暖かい布団とコタツで眠れる、健全な両親も歳を老い死んだら？私は倒れて泣き叫ぶだろう、後追いを考えるかも、でも現在では猫はいるし、ギリギリでもお金は ある、この先は引っ越したい、わからないけど、この場所に引っ越してからいい事がない。東京に戻りたい、世界一大きな街、あるバーで外国人の男の子と、東京と、 N.Yどっちが大きいかで、言い争いになり、彼は東京だと言い張った、物価じゃなく？私も妥協せずに言い張って、彼はもういいって感じで、バーから出て行った、 Japan and Japanese もお願...

I feel like writing my blog today,I know life is harsh,but someone always help you,most of them,they are your parents, I have to thank my mom to help me with money,I will giving up eating ice,meat and fish,I only eat Nattou rice(cheap)and Cafe,I have to thank my mom,I thought my mom was useless but she was the only one who was helpful,when was in trouble,two of Over 3000friends on Facebook helped me,both Japanese,both women,as I see,women are helpful than a man,Japanese were also helpful than American s(sorry,Americans)but as I see almost of Americans seems to wanted some in return,some is always same...sex, Most of them were military,but civilians are almost same,there’s no difference,they are a men....,As I wrote down what my dreams I really don’t know why I want these things? I asked myself why u need these stuffs? Cuz I servive I am not a bumb,I eat cheap food but that can fill my stomach,I can sleep in warm futon and I have kotastu (a table with electric heater)I have par...

on writing here,just tiring,heavy days,fortune tellers told me that I am not going to get married,have some kids nor No one of my dreams will come true,one of them was gypsy,she told me someone cursed on me,she said she gotta uncurse, I didn’t do it,I am trying to be positive and block all negative energy,I don’t think I am happy right now but I will be Happy somehow,I had been trying too hard to find my soulmate,but I should let him find me....,all I love is dead one,I will try to do everything I want,get money,fame baby houses,I will be famous,you’ll see my name someday somewhere, Am I dreaming?hell no!

Lonely...,I told her I wanna be famous in the states,she told me that be more realistic,you’re ill,u must be persecution Complex which made me sad and mad,period,I don’t feel like writing anymore.......,

I don’t know what should I do in my life....something pushes me and makes me hurry,I don’t know where to start...., I am still can’t get over with death of lilpeep,Chris Cornell is older than my age(and good looking)lilpeep is a lot younger than me....,guys like him never like me....but I am into his music and world too much,I draw him everyday, My friend said don’t do that too much,she believes he’s gonna pull off your legs and take me to “ that world”,but not “this world” we live in...,that’s why some die after his/her hero died....,is it bad that I have too many dreams?or Should I be more realistic?none of young guys like lilpeep fall in a love with me,I wish I were 17 when I was scouted in the street by a man with suit,I should’ve have been a singer or an actress,I have never thought about becoming a part of music industry, until lilpeep died,and I think too late becoming famous,now I want fame and money,before I just wanna be rich, Still don’t know what I should do in my 40’s,sti...

I think I am obsessed by lilpeep,his music makes me depressed but I can’t stop listening to him,so is my friend, In the states,why so easy to get drugs?how do you know it’s not fake or no? Every musicians died OD,I wanna die too, I used to think killing myself,but on other hand,I wanna do whatever I want to do,I wanna be successful,get married with a right one,and have some kids,since Google Adsense doesn’t work for me,I have to find out other way to make My money in other way,I might write lyrics,sing along with it and upload in YouTube,or maybe dance,when I was dancing on the stage with singer singing a song called American something by off spring,when I finished dancing,someone tapped on my shoulder and he said I was a good dancer,i’ve never learned how to dance,sing I used to learn how to play piano, But I forgot all of it,plus I don’t have a piano anymore,I know I am too old to start learning these things, But at age of 45, I still don’t know what I want to do in my life,I ...

Here’s tribute pic for lilpeep,he kinda has a face that easily to draw,why did u give up your career? I guess over that b@tch? Lilpeep を追悼して絵を描きました、どうして曲とかモデルとか俳優諦めちゃったの？あの女のせい？ さて、前回の訳ですね、lilpeep の追悼の後にシャノンフーンの 話もおかしな話ですが、、、「今日は、日本語訳が面倒くさい、死ぬとか、自殺、何度も考えたけど、失恋後は最悪、30になって、もし自分が45になって隣に誰も 寝てなかったら、(旦那さん)自殺しようと考えてた、あと数日で45歳、誰もいない、、、シャンノンフーンの死期は死ぬようだったとか、ズルイ、自由に生きて、苦しまずに 死んでいくなんて(この時、死の原因はしらなかった)日本では、有名人とかヤクザくらいしかコカイン手に入れられない、あなたが誰かの父親になれて羨ましい、 私は誰の母親にもなれない、誰も信用できない、あなたが人気者で、皆に愛されたのが羨ましい、でもあなたは子供のように無垢で、音楽業界の厳しさを知らなすぎた、 アルバム一枚売れたからって二枚目が売れる訳じゃないの、あなたの友達、AxlのG N’Rの一枚目は今世紀に残る大ヒットだったけど、二、三枚はそうでもなかった、 でもどうって事は無い、Axlは生き残ったけど、あなたはダメだった、あなたのこと、負け犬なんて言わないけど、小さな子供みたいに、自分の業界を知らなすぎた、 でも天才で、なのに世間はあなたの実力を正評価しなかった、だからって何？だからって何？私のgoogle アドセンスは、ずっとゼロで、だから何？私は、好きな事 書くだけ、、、でも、シャノン、私があなたを羨ましく思うのは、あなたは有名人だった、私は無名、誰かの父親だった、私は1人きり、そして眠るように死ねたの？ ズルイ、世の中は不公平、私が言おうとしていた、Japan and Japanese のblogで、アディクション(依存)の話、今はどうでも良くなった、依存なんて誰にでも あるでしょう、私は甘い物依存してブクブク太るでしょう？誰がケアするの？誰かハイになりたい？私、アルコール以外の方法で、コカイン？誰が欲しくない？ We...