Trying......

I found my mentor,maybe he is Jake or No,I don’t know....my book styles came to different,these days,it’s now like a diary stuffs, I am not the position to teach something or maybe I can teach English which is no good,I don’t know what I could offer besides S and E thing or P,no,nonooooo,I can just tell you what I learned from net or something....here’s today’s dairy,no book,I offer this for free? I don’t know why,and don’t know when I established it,just knowing writing blog thing is good,日本人の方、結構いらっしゃいますか？翻訳必要ですか？ but maybe no answer....well let’s get started!

Ohhh dunno what happened to my Google Adsense,have to figure it out!my book”yesterday,I was not feeling well after my work done,I haven’t felt doing nothing,so I slept earlier at around 10, yesterday,I felt stressful,every time I tried to imagine good future,my imagination changes to it’s bad image,I don’t know what it is,I still don’t think that I’m worthy?i must be worthy to my dreams,today,I checked my mails,there was a mail from Jake,I didn’t know if he will try to answer my questions or even open up my mail,cuz he might get thousands of emails around the world,here’s what I wrote to Jake while I was looking for his speech which might be on YouTube or in my mail,here u go,”Hi,I have been looking the video that you said about the gap between the dream future and present(reality)we tend to forcus on what we Don’t have right now,someone said that Bad thing will happen if you imagine the future too much because you don’t appreciate the presence That is the fact “ I don’t have blah,blah.....”is that true? If so what is the solution for that? I also have a problem imagining the good future,I have been trying to image good thing at first,then,in my imagination,always bad thing is happening,how could I stop negative image? I also cannot imagine my goal because it’s too far,I always think about “ I have to go to school if I want  to be a great singer or an actress,I have to be an actress in Japan first,I have to save money to relocate to the states,I have to get a decent job to make money...etc”I always think that “ I have to.....” Should I stop thinking about it? Thank you for your time and you don’t have to answer this cuz you are busy to teach your students or maybe only students can ask questions btw,I enjoy watching your videos,and I teach my mom what I learned from you,so keep on rocking! you are awesome,Jake, With love,Yuri” what do u think? I might send this mail to the administrator but it will be fine,I will figure them out by myself or will find the answer while I am watching Jake’s video,I am keeping on doing my job,but sometimes I enjoy it but sometimes it’s tiring,I am going to ask my client if this time,my writing is ok,it’s all japanese and part of my job,I have to watch t.v but it’s fun,since I threw away my t.v and DVD player,I regret what I have done,I could rent many movies and practice the women’s role, I am thinking starting to go to movie whenever I feel like to,because I haven’t seen american movies for a long time....,you have to at least say “ what is your top 5 films and actors/actress” I can think of Cameron Diaz,Mark walberg,Natalie Portman and...well I have to remember my favorite actors,as for as movie title,I tend to forget the title,the bad thing is Japanese will be translated it’s title from original ones,I could be a translator work from home,it’s not hard if you don’t occupied all of your time from that,I rather want to be an entertainment industry interpreter,but being an interpreter is a hard job,you have to study 10hours,let’s say,if you want to be an interpreter,that’s no joke,you don’t have time becoming famous,being into Japanese entertainment industry first,you pick whether you want to be an actress or a singer or both,then I will make money and get credits to go to the states,I will might go to school while I do my auditions,I don’t know yet,I thought it will be tough to be a singer in the states especially the top ones,you have to be your own boss and hire specialists in their ways,it’s totally different system from Japan,if being an actress,you can join actors association and they will protect you,some Japanese actors were on the films,thought the connection is important,I don’t still have an image what exactly I want to do,but right now,actress,singer and importantly a mom,a real mom,I have to imagine only good thing and like Jake said you can change just like that,believe in yourself even if you don’t have enough money and dentist gave you silver thing on your teeth,it’s ok,I will consider it’s kind a fashion,maybe it’s hard to be accepted by Japanese but many rap singer and even Madonna has gold in their teeth’s and it’s a fashion,if I got a money,I will change it to the gold......” goodbye for now!