Yuri( Japanese)’s who is struggling with online business blog

In these days,I was so negative,tiring,sick which were no good,but since I started working,I felt better,I still can’t use my imagination or control my feelings,but I am trying,since I am tired and sleepy,I will chant,write stuffs,check my mails and going to bed....., from here...I tried to answer the questions from mail where I got DHA company,I tried send the answer several times,but never sent,there’s an error message,so I sent a question form,I hope it‘ll be fixed by tomorrow,I must refuse before they send me stuffs each months,which will costs,these days,I was upset,mad and irritated,may be I was sick,my throat keep on hurting,and my head aches,but I still keep on doing my job and sang,it’s hard to remember lyrics but I’m trying,I still don’t feel like uploading my karaoke thing,but it will never start until I do it,many people might thumb down signs but I won’t care about it anyways,cuz I know I sing suck,maybe I have to have special voice training which unti aging your voi

I told my mom that everything I learned,like positive thinking,about subconscious,about imagination,every good stuffs,but she acting differently today on the phone,she said Tokyo is too cold to live,I told her I was there for 20 years,Tokyo isn’t that cold,she said,from this year weather is changing in Tokyo,I was upset cuz it was offensive,like I took it mom says bad about Tokyo and stopping me to go there,it wasn’t the first time,she had done that several times,then she accused about fine this year,which made me mad since I owe her money,I told her I will give it back more than a millions back if I become successful,then she started to sing her new song” positive,negative” she keep on singing “positive,negative “cuz they were new words she learned cuz they are English,I thought she was going crazy and it really dropped me nuts,so I hang up the phone,next few hours,I tried to call her again,but no answers,I mailed her ,after few minutes she called me and she confessed she hit a woman,

I’ve been busy figuring out how to things work out....it’s been changing my life slowly,I got new jobs from net, But one client didn’t pay for what i’ve Done for her which drove me crazy,site didn’t help much,if this site is unrealible I won’t use it anymore or I will keep on trying to get My money back,I try to become independent,try to practice what I think I have to do,I have some tasks each day,such as painting,I still keep on drawing lilpeep,sing along songs which are allowed to upload in YouTube,I uploaded some videos but too shy to put them in YouTube I still hesitate to put my pix in Instagram and my sites, It’s sarcasm that I want to be famous,but I am hesitating to show up,I write lyrics,my book which I might show part of them here, I pray,meditate and clean bathroom,etc,learning how to be positive,how to imagine your dreams,how to beat up negativity and about subconscious...etc, Here’s some part that I wrote my book....here u go....”